4th day of 2012, When I was thinking about my first time having……… ***. Yeah, you guessed it, sex. When I think of it, I’m starting to get sick of it. What I mean is seeing it, observing it, talking about it and so on. For you idiots who say; “oh your gay”, “hate game not the player”, “it is fun”, you do not understand, because when you go to the club and start sniffing asses all over until you find a girl. What I mean it has brain washed most guys/boys that lead to the girls/women who think guys/boys all they want is sex. As I have been single and I guess you can say celibate (moderately) for the past 3 years, I have to learned to discipline how potential “sexual counters”. Many older women said I have qualities of a man that a girl/women would love their men to have, but there are areas I need to work on. I can tell when a guy/boy is totally confused and doing what they can to do get laid, it is funny as hell. I start smiling, there was time where I was dressed with my sweater vest and tie attire and there was this one guy with his ”hot” date. This girl thought I worked there and she asked me for help on some directions, I told her that I did not work here. When she looked into my eyes she totally give me this puppy eye, shy, smile, also nervous look. I tried not to laugh, then here comes her boyfriend/date this dude was all bummed out; he looked at me like who is this guy. He’d tried talking to his girlfriend/date, but she kept talking to me. I was laughing, so hard when they left.
I told myself this guy is not going anywhere with her tonight. Sex is a natural in life, but there are many things that I could be doing rather than wasting my time everyday finding someone in the streets, club, party and/or strip club. I degrade sex greatly, “having a good time”, “having fun”, “15 seconds of fame” is not going to cut it. There are days I go around see guys/boys sitting at a bench at a mall, store where I know they are checking out girls/women, I say are you serious? From putting in a muscle into a non-muscle, what is so great? From a girl who has a butt, who has double D’s, curvy, she is bomb or fine???? Because she has those assets on her body doesn’t mean she is worth having sex with? Most of the time girls/women have regret having a one night stand, also “having a good time”. A lot of guys/boys would say “oh that is not true” I think by nature, if they say women love sex, but I think in intimate causal relationship way, not getting drunk or finding a cute guy. It is hilarious how girls are with these guys/boys who have a unstructured mindset. I do not question, I have a project manager instructor at ITT Tech where he told me “10-20 year old “go for face”, 20-30 year old “go for money”, 30-40 year old “go for asset”, which I am starting to believe.
I had a friend back at the Simi Valley Town Center; I was at his friend’s apartment who owned a restaurant at the town center. He told me one time that he use to have sex with all kinds of girls, model type, stripper type , beautiful and gorgeous women, but what he told me that it was not worth it. A waste of time and nothing benefit him. Once I heard that from him, that pretty much proved my point on it is not worth fooling around and having fun, he said continue on with the studies, also the work experience then things will fall together. I’ve seen a lot of girls/women that have a problem socializing with guys/boys, because the guys approach results to a “hit up” or “pick up”. I have my solution of making the women social. As I go through life, I’m not going to concentrating on penetrating a women cherry or sensitive area, I have other things to be focused on rather than being a man whore. It is fun to get to know girls/women and they get close that is no problem. As they say that girls are independent in modern days well I elect that girls start asking guys out on a date rather than having the guys do all the work.
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