Back in San Marino 2012

I’m back in San Marino where I belong. The lively atmosphere of career oriented and town that gets along with others. For the last 2 months I’ve been hanging around the Temple City Starbucks where it feels nothing but isolation and stupidity of individuals. I’m sorry, but the manager is great with some of the employees are not customer service oriented. Despite all that, the atmosphere of people is…..ehhhh. I had a little group I would hang around with in the morning until noon. Yesterday I realized I need to go back to San Marino instead of the isolated part of Temple City and San Gabriel.  The demographics have always played a role where it is pre-dominantly Asian and San Marino majority is white with diversity.

Less than year ago, I realized how demographics play a role in a person’s environment. I think that what has affected me in my lifetime. When I worked at the Simi Valley Town Center where it is predominantly white I’ve noticed the change of scenery. Where in the San Gabriel Valley (SGV) it is isolated, no wonder I have felt the negative and no support from anyone because the “race” card does plays a major role in the environment. I have asked people personally if the “race” card plays a role a most than most have agreed with me.  When I was at the Temple City Starbucks I was hanging around the Asians I have noticed once again I felt the isolation and same ol’ conversations I hear. When I came to San Marino everyone seems more open, generous, and happy. I hear the different backgrounds from individuals, instead people complaining about their money, marriage, kids and they have limited abilities in their life. When I was searching for an area where it has more room, confidence, positive and creative atmosphere like Simi Valley that’s when I turned to San Marino and so far it has been a blast.

I even thought about where are the “majority” (white) individuals around the San Gabriel Valley where I can get an idea of a successful environment. San Marino did change the environment where I can come and enjoy myself personally rather than hearing people complaining about getting married, their kids, being limited and so forth as I mention prior. I’ve noticed in San Marino is that they are more structured and organized when it comes to family orientation. I have met different professionals who have families. I’ve met a fire fighter, seen an NBA agent, Disney executive, former teachers I had, IT engineers and so forth. This is a place where I want to be where I can actually enjoy people have things going on rather than hearing the same crap over and over. I have learned from people in San Marino which I can carry through my life time.

In the group, there are 2 older male who sit with me and 2 other Asian females at table at the Temple City Starbucks. One Asian male has some good advice that I have kept he is the one who usually comes in the morning and stays until noon. There is another Asian male who comes frequently but leaves around 10 or 11.  Yesterday they were talking about marriage and money, both Asian males agreed on two things money and sex. Yup, typical “guys” so much for being wise. They both discussed where when you have money you should not marry or do not get married. The Asian gentleman who comes frequently, I personally think he is an idiot. This when I think the Asian men when it comes to money and women, they care for the money than they do for women. When it comes to Asian people I think that’s all they care about it money. I do not think they understand the meaning of money management. I told both of them “bullshit, the only reason why individuals are poor, because they do not manage their money. People invest their money and also select what they want. That’s why these CEO’s executives, politicians and investors are the smartest people in the world.”

The majority have changed my view of when it comes to success and wealth. Since tomorrow I will be turning 25 years the new era will officially began I cannot wait. My emotions have been running high and flowing, everything from the past is behind me and ready to start my manhood and ready to learn myself, future family and my kids. The unofficial start has given its boost to transition gradually. I’m ready to start to learn more, open my mind more and ready to move up in life. I’m ready to be a man…..

Develoment 2012

It has been almost a week since I have almost blogged. I have been reading more a consistently for the past week and disciplining myself to read at least more than 3 hours. Work is going smoothly and I’m getting the hang of the new environment, today I want to go in at least 2 hours early so I can learn the way the director of security wants to operation to be controlled.  I really want to master my work, education and skills that I have to develop over the course of my life. I had a couple of discussion at Starbucks this week, a male with his female  business partner were talking about their product they are trying to sell and market, until the male ask me what do I do for a living and my background.

I talked about my education background and what I started for a career. The three of us had a conversation, the male individual told me that you can never stop learning until the day you stop breathing which is true. No matter what age, everyone in the world is capable of learning every day. The way I see it, most people have their learning caps off. I have my learning cap on 24/7 there is always things to learn, but I cannot learn everything. Since I started security I have changed dramatically from last 3 years and a half working. Security did change my life the way looking at life. I have better communication skills, observation skills, documentation skills and other skills necessary, plus with school on top of that is the cream on the crop. I had told myself I wish I had learned on this stuff when I was a kid. When you go to school from elementary to high school you develop those skills and build on top of that. Instead of focusing on girls I wish I had concentrated on my education to go somewhere prestige rather than chasing girls who are “hot” “pretty” and “cute”. Reading my prior belongs may seem like I have a hate for women and I do not care for them. I do, the fact is my “guy” mind totally took control of me and I just wanted to be someone, which is perfectly natural.

Since I am turning 25 in the next few days, things will start to get serious and start living manhood. It’s been a fun 24 years for me. Even though it has been the same number of days, but I feel that the age of 24 has been a long successful. The next few days, I am going to continue learning and make an easy transition into 25, I’m not saying I am old, but I have young in my mind. If my mind is healthy, my heart is healthy. I have a lot of potential and a lot of learning to do. My life is still a development and a practice. The learning, skills, knowledge and education I learn is a building legacy not only till the day I die but my future kids. People have said “Oh, well Dave, things change, but kids are different it depends on them.” I understand that......

I am going to do whatever I can to master certain skills from my career to daily life. I wish my mentality was more focused when I was younger, but I have always given myself excuses to spend money and so forth. My development of my self- discipline and work ethic will continue to progress. I do not want restrictions and conflicts with anything. “Things do happen” without realizing it is all in the present moment, here and now.   

smart phones 2012

“Iphones” one of the most popular smart phones ever invented and ever hit to the market globally. This smartphone has everything that you need from planners, camera, video, apps, access to face book, phone and so on. This is the ultimate “user-friendly” phone which basically everything is in this 64 GB (depends which one you buy) to store memory. I say great phone, but makes you not as interactive, stupid and not communicative which I’ll explain in a later. I’m not going just single out the iphone, but all smart phones can cause the same problem. “I got a Droid, Blackberry, Evo and so forth. My phone is a basic flip phone by Samsung, I’m not going to spend $300 on a phone which I’m not going to use. I’ll admit that I did have a Android G1 and Blackberry, but I felt that I was not satisfied and also I did not want to spend $30 on the internet when I’m basically on the internet almost every day. The internet gets boring or nothing interests me. I decided just to have a basic flip phone.  

Several months ago, I have seen the “cell phone side effects” which can really crush someone’s social skills, parenting, literature and concept. I have heard that people with smart phones are the ones who usually get “laid”. Sure, I have experienced that people really have poor social skills when it comes to their cell phones which it is a major turn off. I have dated a few women, but they would constantly text, look at their phone, they do not communicate well and so on. Even they want to continue talking to me, well fix your skills first then we’ll talk. I do not want to be overruled but a stupid cell phone. I had the same experienced with my male friends which where they totally concentrate on their smart phones, so I really get upset. Today’s technology is awesome, but it seems that people are starting to get lost when it comes to their life. They say cell phone is their life, I love it when someone breaks their iphone or smartphone it is hilarious, these people dread that their smart phone screen is broken or does not work. Many people would dispute on where I am going with this blog, do not get me wrong, but there are people who know how to balance their life with a cell phone or their social skills just suck!

When I had a smartphone I did not constantly text on my cell phone and interrupt/stop people from finishing their conversation, texting in front of their face that is not the way to go. If I am out with a friend or someone I am there to talk to them no one else, but that does not fit the profile.  What really gets me is when parents are on their smart phone and they have their kids running around without supervision. Since I work in a hospitality sector, I see parents at the play area and they are on their smart phones. They let their kids wonder around at a store, plaza, or at a shopping vicinity they are on their smart phone while their 3 or 5 year old are going down the escalator by themselves. This is where my job is appreciated; I go make an effort to stop the kid from going down the descending escalators then advise the parent to watch his/her kid almost running down the escalators without supervision. Smart phone or your son/daughter, no excuses watch your kids. Smart phones can really hurt someone’s skills.

I rather do things in hardcopy; for example, a planner, address book or filing paper copies. I do not rely on technology. I have a balance on both but I prefer hard copies. I do not have to panic when my phone hits the floor then all my files get erased. Once I have a hard copy then if I want to then I’ll insert electronically, if necessary.  Later on in my life time, I’ll buy a reliable technical source then store my files in a secure thumb drive or notebook. Whatever I have accessed I want my future kids to have from future outlines to make a resumes and other documents. I want my future kids not to rely heavily on technology on when as necessary. Probably by the time I die, that generation probably will heavily rely on technology. So I will have hard copies and technical source for my kids. There are plus and minus when people use their smartphones, because the phones can make people dumber (in my opinion) there is no competition in the job market, because of the “smart phone side effects”. Two things help me out greatly, young adults (18-26) who party and suffer the “smart phone effects” separates the competition in the job market.

College preference 2012

I was talking to my friend about education last night; he said he would like to major civil engineering which I think that is a good major. When the economy gets better the engineering sector will be booming slowly as the economy continues to grow. However, I remember back in 2008 when I decided to back to school and major in Criminal Justice for my bachelors degree at ITT Technical Institute. I thought to myself does it even matter for which I college I attend for my career. I decided to take a risk and get a college degree. When I attended college I wanted to become a Private Investigator for a career and start security for experience. I started ITT Tech in March of 2008; I started to see other options from FBI Special Agent to TSA Federal Security Director. During my first tenure with ITT Tech I’ve started to research more on the school on how the school is competitive and recognized by certain agencies and companies. ITT consoled me on how the DEA, FBI, CIA and police agencies have recruited individuals from ITT Tech. This confirmed it did not matter where I went to school and I am on the right pace.

Many high school graduates and young adults have not decided on what to do or what school to attend. I believe it does not matter where you go to college as long you have dedication and commitment to accomplish your B.S. degree. I say as long the program or degree you pursue is either related or the field you want to work in; for example, the criminal justice side covers the basics and the project management degree explains the management of the operations and business side of things. I thought criminal justice was a vague degree when many police officers and agencies prefer to study another field, because you will be learning the criminal justice as you get inside the academy. Once again it does not matter on what college or university you attend in certain fields. Business, Criminal Justice, information Technology, can be taken anywhere from private to public, but certain areas like psychology, sociology, child development  and other majors might be in public schools, but it takes research on where to attend.

When attending a college or university, it is the matter of understanding the material and what he/she is going to school for. Some schools provide theory and hands on training or just theory. I had the luxury of getting both while attending ITT Tech. College is about training for your career and extending your knowledge in your field of study. In today’s economy, education is not enough to help bulldoze through the competition. By the time either a junior or senior college students should be able get internships or part time job in their field to develop skills and experience.  Students do not discipline themselves to look for internships, they rather “just……….party”. I’ve researched through a few college websites where they have internships where students can inquire for hands-on training, seminars, extra curriculum and other training for their experience. Instructors also, currently, retire from or have experience in the field where students can obtain the knowledge from their field. There is a lot of resource in school where students can obtain information.

If I had to do it over again and I would go to college out of state, I believe the better education is in the east coast, if I wanted a legitimate education. I think it would personal preference for a student to choose a college they want to go. A recent conversation I had with a Starbucks buddy. If you want to go out of town or state, then it would be an experience living in a dorm. Mentioned earlier, I would have like to go to college out of state and live in a dorm to experience, but I was never motivated in high school. The best high school year I had was sophomore year, but I never continued my education in high school. I suggest people to go to college and get their degree to get ahead of the competition. It does set an example to your future kids and also to yourself that you can do anything.

Observation in relationships 2012

11^th day of January 15 more days until I’m 25, It feels like I was 24 years old for more than a year. I was thinking about the days when a friend told me about their ex-boyfriend/girlfriend hooked up with their best friend or a friend.  My friend would be pissed because their friend did not ask them that if they could hook up with their ex-boyfriend/girlfriend. I believe that when a couple has broken up and either the boyfriend/girlfriend do not have feelings or do not want to work on the relationship out anymore I believe it is up for grabs. I understand the emotions are high and both individuals are hurt or they completely moved for whatever circumstance, either boyfriend/girlfriend have the right to start dating again no matter what the circumstances. Most likely it is the indication that the one of exes do not want to be with their ex-partner.

I was never in love or did not commit, my exes may seem that they were in love, but in reality I did not commit or I wasn’t mature enough to be in love. I’ve learned through listening, reading, observing, and thinking about certain things about relationships. If I was ever in a situation where I was with someone then we suddenly broke up then she found someone else, there is nothing I can do.  As individuals, couples, husband and wife no one can predict the outcome of a relationship or marriage. In the book I read back in high school called “Sacred Hoops”, this book gave me a different aspect about life, basically “being in the moment” will dictate what will happen in the between the past and future. Both partners have to work within the relationship to make things work and be on the same page. I believe that has all died out in recent relationships that I have seen or heard. The basic essentials in common marriage or relationships are communication, bonding, trust and honesty. The male mindset sees the girl if she is “hot” then it is a possible relationship, with a girl they assume the position of the guy/boy and he’s cute then it is a possible relationship. Once again, I do not know if it is like that in other areas of the United States, I only believe it because it is the media influence of Hollywood and media of Los Angeles.

I am surprised that Khloe and Lamar Odom have gone a half a year in marriage I thought that they were not going to last within a few months, but it has been a decent marriage between the two. People may say “oh, it is a reality show” I believe you do not understand; this is not for publicity. In high school, when a male/female says someone they like the relationship is established within a month or so, but as you get older. It takes more than a month, because of a potential partner and soul mate for the rest of your life. Mentioned prior, basic essentials have died out; so many relationships formed are not stable. Most girls that I have experienced, they either assume what I would do or what they have experienced with other guys, which I take as an insult. They assume what other guys did to them; I am going to do the same.  The last two women I have met, they said “not to expect anything”, okay, so what do you mean? They tell me “Well most guys think this and that”……..In my mind “turn off”!

In my “puppy love” relationships I told my girlfriends do not tell anyone about our relationship. It is none of their business. I do not want to hear their friends complaining about me or hating me. I rather have them hate me, because I had them hate me which I prefer. Mention prior in this blog, when my friend’s ex hooked up with her friend, she was pissed. I rather not develop feelings for someone else and might cheat on her, so I tend to stay away from her friends. I’ll admit I do not have friends, so it makes it easier on me. Problems, arguments, and negativity wastes my time and I had a lot of that in my 24 years, I do not want that anymore. It is only the second week of 2012, so far, things are progressing slowly and greatly I’m still 24, so even better. I continue to assess my manhood before things get serious in my life.  

establishment 2012

I have started my first few days as Lieutenant at the property and mention before it feels really good working once again and those hours in. Right now it is not all about the money; it is all growth and responsibilities as mentioned in my prior blogs. Two things I have learned from my prior supervisor position is that I’m going to learn through experience whatever I do not know I am going to get consultant on it by both directors and I am going to get constructive criticism as a I move forward. I put pressure on myself on the first couple of day, but it seems it went well once I got my feet wet and handled situation greatly.  Once I continue growing in the security company the money will grow within the position, before the tax forms and pay checks start coming through I want to plan out my finances, so I will not be in a major whole.

I told myself I have to start at a solid base by saving money and start progressing instead of finding excuses to spend money. I will be going more to those meet up events and they are not high priced at all. It is the matter of budget and discipline, $50 is enough going through the night if I was a hard drinker and an alcoholic then it would be a different story. I would need at least $100 to have a good night. In order to get the fast establishment that I want, I am looking for a second job after I have my permanent schedule. I would have time for myself and my online masters program that I will be taken in February.  Once tax season is coming I have come up with a solution where I’ll pay half and I am going to take vacation to New York. For the first few years I have to live on a range and start budgeting and use the resources to make things easier than using gas. I think $800 can do it if I think about it and do not cheat myself into more credit card holes as I keep going.  Starting at age 25, I do not want any financial problems; I want things to be smooth as I continue working through my manhood and make things easier make credit, I will have a bad credit history because I did not pay my bills on time or anything but I have to consult about my credit and straighten it out as I go.

The cost of living is on a rise, because of the inflation and the economic turmoil, despite the growth in jobs doesn’t mean California is going to get better.  I believe that the east coast is probably getting better with jobs and cost living is probably cheaper. With the currently security company I’m with, I would like to grow into a position where it is out of state. In New York I might decide to take the security class and get certified for the state. If they have an opening in the state I would take they probably would not have relocation expenses, but it would be interesting taking another state job which is a dream job. The masters program online is going to be beneficial, I can take the class anytime I want in my own pace.  The Security Management program is a one year and half accelerated course, which I may not have a problem with. I was going to take the Security and Intelligence course to sound tough and interesting, but they said I needed a Criminal Justice B.S. degree, so I decided to take the Security Management program. I believe it is a combination between Project Management and Criminal Justice degrees that I have.

My future resume wants to read Security Management M.S., 5 to 7 years of management or supervisor experience and certifications in PSP and CPP from ASIS International. Mentioned prior, as long I keep educating myself in security I think I will not have any problem accomplishing my task that I want I can see this being reach when I am between my late 20’s or early 30’s. Hopefully by then regional manager or director of a property.

Family support 2012

Today was my first day as a supervisor in training. I will grow into my position, by the help of the both assistant and main director of the account. To overlook the operations will be a smooth transition, but I see the bad habits that some security officers already have. The main security director already has informed me of what to do. Besides all that, I felt really good getting back into the security scene once again, I felt so naked and disgusted not working for one whole month. I felt useless and it is something I do not want to ever experience ever again in my life. I rather be in vacation getting paid than being unemployed. Do you know how it sucks being unemployed? Literally it sucks; I’m dead serious it is something I do not want to experience ever again.  When I asked for a fresh start in life I dead not mean get behind my bills and do not work for a month, but I think it meant motivation and inspiration of the newly Dave Jefferson. My assistant director has already given tips on how to get recognizes in the company. That is something I am going to take accordingly as I proceed with the company.

Right now, my mind is concentrated in one aspect growth, I do not have any hot women I have in mind right now. It is all about career oriented and I am where I want to be in life. I had to work for this for 24 years; I’m glad that it happened before by 25th birthday, so this can actually set up this early in the long run. I really want to thank the people who have been behind me since 2009, my family, the few friends and the people who have motivated me negatively throughout my life when I was 6 years old until now. My parents (despite how many conflict they had and I had with them) I’ve appreciate the negative/positive support they have giving me I have learned how to filter certain things that they have thrown at me, it gave me the sense of motivation and inspiration to accomplish my goals and life objectives. I’ve seen my dad as a hard worker and I’ve seen my mom as a supporter, I have cherished those things in my life. Since I finished my B.S. degree and got this supervisor job I feel that nothing can stop me as I continue learning and running on. In the bottom of heart deeply I love my mom and dad, no matter what happens in the long run. They may see the anger and frustrations at home but I know I have the deep soft heart I have.

I have to thank my 2 brothers no matter I am not close with them, but hopefully I can draw some inspiration, because of my work ethic. I remember those days my older brother has taken me to the Alhambra football games where I have become a 21 year loyal fan from his playing days until now, Seeing him being competitive on the field, having a family and now working once again, I’m glad to see him grow as a man. He is a good example of a father, role model, high figure and a man willing to take the care of kids at home, which many “guys” do not do.  My little brother, I think he has so much potential in his arsenal despite the box games he has played with his high school friends, but hey, I was in the category. I really want him to succeed and be better than me he has a lot of years ahead of him and way to grow in life. I have talked to him in certain aspects in life regarding friends, girls, finance and jobs. It is all in the back of his head, but I know he will understand. When I turn 25 years I’m going to do whatever I can for him to get an early head start in man hood. Whatever he wants to learn I’ll do what I can to teach him. I love both brothers no matter what the circumstances are.

My 2 annoying sisters, I do not think so, if it was not for them I wouldn’t have more time to study, learn, plan and organize my thoughts about my future girl friends or kids that I want to have in the future. My older sister is the inspiration that I have to see how older women think; lately we have come closer as brother and sister. I have enjoyed our conversation about relationships we have learned from each other. She gave me ideas on how women think, what her ideas are about guys, her experiences and what does she think about today’s generation. I felt like I needed that wing girl to help me out with other situations with women which even made it easier for decisions to make in my life. I have appreciated everything from her as a sister. Then there is my little rude annoying going to be 8 year old sister, I think if it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t have no created anymore time spending time on my homework and organizations of life because how she annoyed me and I did not want to hear her. Watching her grow when she was little kid on January 27, 2004 I remember the first time I saw her when I came back home then saw the last little sister I will probably have in my life. She may be a brat, but she is the one who puts more time in my hands to get out of the house to create more planning and education in my life. No matter what happens I love both sisters.

 My families were always my supporter I may say I do not have support but they have been there for me, saying the little things I am proud of you and I know you can do it. One day, I hope I succeed earlier that I realize than give something back I have been living under there roof for 23 years and 6 months. They have only tasted 6 months without me, but think about one day I’m really gone to New York or somewhere in the east it is going to be a long time until I come back to California and visit them. Right now, I’m doing what I can to enjoy my family before I take off into my career and go the east coast. No matter what happens I’ll be 3,000 miles away. Hahanah j/k, I will be around for a while.

Dave Jefferson

First day in a last minute notice 2012!

Today is the 6^th day of January, 2011, 20 more days until I’m officially as a man and continue to grow. I had a rough night last night, because of my dad. I’m not going to get deep into details of the event that took place, but I do know what is going on with him. Anyhow, what I have decided to do is to stall my future family planning. Currently I am really annoyance and stress that has occurred in my house. Tomorrow I start my job as a Lieutenant in Carson; I cannot wait to get out there. It has been exactly a month since the last time I have worked. I will be more dedicated and committed, also work my way to the top and hopefully become a regional and/or vice president of the company someday.

As I go into my new position tomorrow, I’ll be looking into more avenues to work and develop new skills for my future position. I am going to be asking my director for more training and areas I can look into to develop my knowledge and management skills in security. In march or sooner I want to reclaim my membership in ASIS International where I can continue to learning more from other security professionals and network. I was doing that for a few months last year until I did not continue studying because I was not structuring my scheduling myself appropriately, so I was unable to read or learn as much last year. I want to work hard and move up as much as I can for the next few years. Make enough money then transfer out to the east coast where I can make a better and comfortable living. Here in Los Angeles I’m starting to see where things are expensive, also the cost of living. Even though I am kind of in a pickle I do not want this to be a continuous problem. I will have a structured solution. I want to have breathing room as I go forward. I always mention if I ever had a time to do it over I sure would. No more credit cards, no extra expenses.  It sucks when you have no additional money to spend.

Just at 12:00 pm my Director of Security has called me to go work at the property today, this will be my first official day as Lieutenant…..Things happen, at least in a good way!

sex conceptions 2012

4^th day of 2012, When I was thinking about my first time having……… ***. Yeah, you guessed it, sex. When I think of it, I’m starting to get sick of it. What I mean is seeing it, observing it, talking about it and so on.  For you idiots who say; “oh your gay”, “hate game not the player”, “it is fun”, you do not understand, because when you go to the club and start sniffing asses all over until you find a girl. What I mean it has brain washed most guys/boys that lead to the girls/women who think guys/boys all they want is sex. As I have been single and I guess you can say celibate (moderately) for the past 3 years, I have to learned to discipline how potential “sexual counters”. Many older women said I have qualities of a man that a girl/women would love their men to have, but there are areas I need to work on. I can tell when a guy/boy is totally confused and doing what they can to do get laid, it is funny as hell. I start smiling, there was time where I was dressed with my sweater vest and tie attire and there was this one guy with his ”hot” date. This girl thought I worked there and she asked me for help on some directions, I told her that I did not work here. When she looked into my eyes she totally give me this puppy eye, shy, smile, also nervous look. I tried not to laugh, then here comes her boyfriend/date this dude was all bummed out; he looked at me like who is this guy. He’d tried talking to his girlfriend/date, but she kept talking to me. I was laughing, so hard when they left.

I told myself this guy is not going anywhere with her tonight. Sex is a natural in life, but there are many things that I could be doing rather than wasting my time everyday finding someone in the streets, club, party and/or strip club. I degrade sex greatly, “having a good time”, “having fun”, “15 seconds of fame” is not going to cut it. There are days I go around see guys/boys sitting at a bench at a mall, store where I know they are checking out girls/women, I say are you serious? From putting in a muscle into a non-muscle, what is so great?  From a girl who has a butt, who has double D’s, curvy, she is bomb or fine???? Because she has those assets on her body doesn’t mean she is worth having sex with? Most of the time girls/women have regret having a one night stand, also “having a good time”. A lot of guys/boys would say “oh that is not true” I think by nature, if they say women love sex, but I think in intimate causal relationship way, not getting drunk or finding a cute guy. It is hilarious how girls are with these guys/boys who have a unstructured mindset. I do not question, I have a project manager instructor at ITT Tech where he told me “10-20 year old “go for face”, 20-30 year old “go for money”, 30-40 year old “go for asset”, which I am starting to believe.  

I had a friend back at the Simi Valley Town Center; I was at his friend’s apartment who owned a restaurant at the town center. He told me one time that he use to have sex with all kinds of girls, model type, stripper type , beautiful and gorgeous women, but what he told me that it was not worth it. A waste of time and nothing benefit him. Once I heard that from him, that pretty much proved my point on it is not worth fooling around and having fun, he said continue on with the studies, also the work experience then things will fall together. I’ve seen a lot of girls/women that have a problem socializing with guys/boys, because the guys approach results to a “hit up” or “pick up”. I have my solution of making the women social. As I go through life, I’m not going to concentrating on penetrating a women cherry or sensitive area, I have other things to be focused on rather than being a man whore. It is fun to get to know girls/women and they get close that is no problem. As they say that girls are independent in modern days well I elect that girls start asking guys out on a date rather than having the guys do all the work.

Learning and Writing 2012

The 3^rd day of 2012, I say this might be my last week from vacation, until I get verification about the background check has been passed through the FBI and ready to work on Friday Jan 6^th. There has been a lot of down time in my hands for the past month, I went from redeveloping myself to making plans of reading, finance, goals, learning, reading and more education on the way. I believe education and reading is important in life, while I do my best to learn as much I can, I want to teach my future kids to understand how valuable knowledge and skills are.  As I continue learning and putting more information in my head, I feel more educated and focused. I wish I possess this type of hunger for learning when I was younger. When I was in elementary I was going through the classroom with ease learning, but certain subjects I did not care. When I got to high school, I thought learning and doing homework is such a waste of time, why even go to school.

When I was a junior in high school I needed a plan for my future and get into a career. I was not sure on what to do. I’m unsure if I mentioned in one of my previous blog was to be a disc jockey like the “King of Media” Howard Stern. That was my main focus when I got out of college and wanted to be in radio in New York or maybe even an announcer in sports. Fast forward from 2004 to now, things have change over the course of 7 years. Now I have a B.S. degree in project management, supported by an A.S. in Criminal Justice. I thought I’d never to say this to myself, but I really like learning about business and the criminal justice side of things. My M.S. program does not start until February, until then I want to learn as much as I can before my Security Management program starts. This would put me in a position to at least grab some information about certain history, writing skill, criminology or news that I would obtain and insert it into memory and use when I have a conversation with someone.

From the learning that I missed out in high school and the luxury that I did have, I’m going to learn as much this year by reading certain books and articles on the internet. I say that the internet may give summaries, but there are certain websites that have useful information that can be useful in the long run. I want to learn more about other agencies in law enforcement such as the CIA, FBI, and other agencies, also read true crime, maybe this can help me with my thinking in my security career as I progress up the ranks. What can be the difference maker with my writing, because my previous director and also read that reading helps with your writing as you continue reading books. Reading is a lot of fun depending on what you read, as they say read what interest you. I feel that my writing is getting better, but I think I have to get use to proof reading and attention to detail on certain as aspects of writing.

When I think about my previous assignments from elementary to high school to college, everything is almost in writing. I wish I knew how to write better, because of my profession on what is going to take from reports to contracts/proposals that have to be written to the client or in court. If I had a change to do it all over again from high school moving forward, I would consider it. I know as much people do not like school, but it is the luxury of learning. I think I could get better at writing and maybe grasp better skills in writing from essays and projects. I praise ITT Technical Institute with their education that helped me improve on writing and other skills that I got hands on training. If I decide to have a hobby, I believe it is going to be reading books to improve my knowledge and obtain other information as I go along.  

Shakes Head 2012

In the second day of 2012, the only thing that is not going to change is basically my family, for the last few years it has been the same and tape recording day every day. Nothing seems new for the family of 6 living as I’m sleeping in the living room for the time being until I decide to either move out on my again (which I’m still considering) or keep dealing with it like I have been for the last 24 years. I have enough patience being at 2 different Starbucks in the same day waiting for my confirmation for my job.  Likely by this week I will know that I will be working on the 6th of January which is 20 days away from my birthday. I do want to be a better person but it seems like one my parent are not realizing that being bias to one of your kids is how to raise your kids rather than hearing both stories. In my family there is no such thing as parenting, my parents skills of parenting have died for the last year and half or maybe even longer. I’ll admit there are certain things I had to look and learn as I grew up rather than having no support and being against for the last 24 years.

I have always heard my parents say “Wait until you have your kids” or “You do tell her anything, you tell that to you kids”. Okay, so when my little sister or brother has thrown something at me and I say stop then my mom says do not tell him anything. Wait…..are you joking right? I do not have the authority to tell my little brother or sister anything when basically she/she threw something at me. Then my mom tells me, you wait until you have your kid……I think that is stupid decision. When I have my own kids, my sons/daughters will have the authority to tell there brothers/sisters on what to do, my son/daughter tells there mother (future wife) or myself what happened of course there is going to be some course of action. There was another situation that I had with my sister and I discussed. Where my kid sees something dangerous and tells his/her cousin (my brother or sister’s son/daughter) to stop but hurt my kid. I would have my kid tell me then I would tell my nephew (the cousin of my son/daughter) to stop. Then if my brother or sister tells me do not tell his son/daughter anything. Alright then, I would tell my kid to beat the hell out of their cousin regardless or first come to tell me then I say no get him and beat his/her ass you have the right for self-defense.

I’ve parenting from young to my parents and it is really horrible. Today’s kids especially from generation to the young are really bad. No manners, no respect, no parenting or supervision. At times I think do I really want to change in my family household and get stepped all over by my little sister and by my mom and get in trouble for something I did not do? In Rosemead I would not let anything get in my way, when I came back in April of 2011 to live with my parents I loosen up. My little sister was okay until she has been developing an attitude and she was not like that before. I really want to get my job quickly now, because the way I see it, I’m not going to let this keep going. Maybe that’s why I do not take her painting or buy her anything because the way she is. That’s how I was with my little brother I did not bother buying him anything until he was older and mature. I am a big believer in respect and being fair among kids. I do not see that when I was a kid. If there has to be a time to stick up for myself then I’m going to do it.  When I was younger I felt like I was against all the time but I understood how to stand up for myself then I understand the importance of accomplishing your goal and standing up for myself.

Right now, I’m on the right track of beginning my life. I think I have to start planning activities to get out of the house more and learn how to go somewhere without spending as much money. Maybe more reading time, working hard at my job or volunteering. I have options to look at it to develop myself as a man and person when I continue life. I would have to look in about a month in a half after working to see what directions and paths do I have available.  Since majority of my time will be working before coming home I can stop by somewhere relax and eat. As time goes, I will input my schedule and will give my strategy towards my activities and directions I have. Currently it is only the second day in the year 2012.

2012

The first day of 2012, about 25 more days until I turn 25 years old and many more adventures and goals to accomplish. Today is the first day of my name being changed to Dave Jefferson, going through all the mess that “Castaneda” left behind. Starting from the finance to see what has to be paid, laundry, and important documents that have to be thrown away. I won’t be done maybe until February by then everything should well to go. 2012 so far is calm, it is going to be an easy transition as I go through hopefully, getting my job by this week, starting school in February and continue studying, also learning.

As I kept reading articles to get better person and also a man I believe that there are going to be more traits that I’m going to adapt or starting in my arsenal to be a better Man as I go along.  Maybe by this year certain concepts that I view change and they are not so bad. I do not want a lot of down in my life anymore, I believe it is a waste of time and I can get into a comfort zone of being lazy which I do not want to get into. Constantly work my mind and fill in with much knowledge I can produce. As I mention prior, now on towards the future this is for my future kids. I need to manage my life better and seize the opportunities when it arises. Less than a month I’ll be a year into my prime. All the media, women, gossip, the past and negativity in Castaneda-days are over. The progress is going to be in a transition for a couple or few months to get gain the results I want. I will be monitoring my health more, from working out to eating right. There is nothing I can do my Tourettes, I have my facial twitches and tics which is not going to be a problem.    

I’ll be looking for ways to improve my skill set in my career to become the best security professional and reach for the highest level that I can achieve. If there is something wrong between this week and it stops my opportunity I’ll be looking into a different direction and possibly a career change, but eventually that is not going to happen. My goal is to stay with the hiring company for at least 2 years and progress to get promoted, if I get a regional director position I would like to have it out of state, which would be an achievement right away. Again, my career path will dictate my position in life, so I have the options to go where I want to go. Parents, family members, relatives, friends or any one external is not going to tell well why this and why not that. People that I know in my surrounding tend not to be supportive, it is amazing how a family has short term memory they do not remember on what they said or did. I’m not going mention which family.

I’ve decided I’m going to continue that Castaneda “dominant and arrogant” side. I want to be calmer and relax in the situation rather than forcing the issue. This will help be more diplomatic and conservative as I go on. As much I a lot of accomplishment with that approach, I’m getting older and I do want people to keep thinking that I’m a jerk. I rather be a person who helps them out, but I’m not going to be friendly right of the bat, but I will engage a rapport. The ball is always on the other person court if they want to accept my help or not. I can do my part of being a friend or an acquaintance.  The transition is going to be an uncomfortable, but that means I am doing it the right way. It is like getting out of your comfort zone.  I want to take some leadership classes and will attend security seminars throughout the year. I have a planner which I will start using to priorities my activities throughout the year, so I can at least on schedule with certain activities that I have to do. If I have any down time and everything is done within the week, it is either reading or looking for my classes or something to attend to increase my knowledge in an area in life.

I’m in a good state of mind right now and I want to continue to strive into my potential that I have. Especially, with the education and experience I have. The more I keep moving up the better I can achieve the goals I want, I’m going to do whatever I can do to climb the ladder and keep educating myself. I’m never going to stop learning until the day I stop breathing.